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Hello, my name is Steve Elfrink. And I'm going to share a positive experience that I had with psychedelics. This is specific to LSD. This happened when I was about 28 29. So just a few years ago and I was at a point in my life, uh very, very depressed, actually suicidal. And uh so also trigger waring. So there will be some talk about suicide in this um sharing. So I was at a point in my life where I thought I had done everything right. I had also been dealing with depression suicidality in my, you know, for most of my life, but I thought I had achieved some level of um stability, but then depression suicidality came roaring back. And I was at a point in my life where I was either going to be, you know, this hopeful large LSD experience to shift things for me or actually, you know, going forward with a suicide attempt. So I was willing to try it and it was a grand experiment. And as you can tell I'm still here. So with that experience, what I did was I sourced pure liquid LSD. Um actually from a Neil Young concert. Thank you, Neil Young. And I was at that time and living in Scottsdale, Arizona in an apartment by myself and I took uh 1200 micrograms one evening uh for novice or if you're not familiar with LSD, an average dose would be about 100 micrograms, beefy dose 300. Um But I knew I kind of had one shot here. So I went kind of the proverbial big go go big or go home. So I did 1200 micrograms. And uh I'm glad I did, I'm glad I did. I wouldn't recommend it. I'm not advocating for these huge doses of LSD. But for me, uh it was life changing. So my experience was, you know, taking the 1200 micrograms and pretty much felt like almost instantly. I was, I was in it and my first experience because I was kind of somewhat out of it or just like whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, what's happening. So I had the idea to go because I started in my living room to go lay down in my bedroom. So I opened my bedroom door and then the bedroom was filled with shimmering lights. It was dark in there and I came from a lighted um living room and the room was just filled with pure white light and I was like, oh my God, what is this? And then uh trying to figure out where is this coming from? Then I realized it was me. It was I was the source of the white light. So it was just this pure white light raiding out at me, lighting up the entire room, the shimmering, beautiful white light. And then I went to the bathroom, did the proverbial look in the mirror. Don't look in the mirror, but I looked in the mirror and what I saw was the most beautiful man in existence. And then what happened though is then my face morphed into every face that's ever existed in humanity. So it's just this unfolding of and literally every face that ever existed in humanity. Every face of every person who's ever lived kind of unfolded in front of me, but filled with beauty filled with this white light, filled with love. Yeah, just pure love was just radi radiating out of me and reflecting back to me in that mirror episode. Then I spent the next about 6 to 7 hours laying on the floor in my apartment in a state of there's no words, this is an ineffable place of bliss, ecstasy, uh Some grief, sadness, waves of that, but primarily just pure bliss, joy. And what was happening as I was laying on the floor was the the apartment was gone and I was just in this kind of infinite cosmos place and love was just streaming out of me, out of my heart, but streaming out into the universe. But then the universe was reciprocating and flooding my whole soul, my whole being with love and this white light. And there was this profound experience of unity, consciousness, white light, love. And it shifted my life. And the next day went outside and I, I literally felt like I was reborn. Uh The suicidality got, was gone. Depression was gone. And it really shifted my entire life. Uh just opened me to, I start eating organic food, exercising, uh started finding, finding a whole new group of friends, alternative, healing, alternative, you know, more shamanic work. And it was just an incredible life changing experience. And I can honestly say I owe my life to LSD and that experience. So thank you Albert Hoffman and thank you for listening. OK. Take care of everyone out there and be safe. Bye.