What really what they spoke to in me was that I was modeling this type of behavior for my baby.

I wanted to set, you know, this, this sort of nurturing and loving environment for my child, but I wasn't nurturing and loving myself first.

When I was able to start nurturing and caring for myself, through food, and movement, and meditation, and just those small breaks and moments throughout the day, I was able to then love my baby in such a beautiful and full of gratitude type of way."